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Eternal Love

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If I were ever to love again, it would be with you because I would find you again.

A love like ours will never end, so seeking you out would be my first and last cause. We share a future and a past and remain in the present.

I will find you anywhere by circling the universe or the multiverse, knowing your presence is repeated. Emotions be damned we shake a tree, our hearts will always gather together.

Enlightened we are Lightened by each other’s path
We are never lost, always found

We are and will always be like the sound of the wind or a summer night storm.

Our love will protect us and always keep us together
like the moon that stays full and the stars shine in the sky.

There’s no river too long or no mountain that could ever touch the sky that would not let us seek each other
for we are one.

Never lost pathos or aligned reincarnated, we might be
if there is a heaven, we shall see forever and always.

The sun will rise in all its beauty morning always finds
The sun will set in the colorful night sky, bright and intriguing as ever, still shining like the morning. This will, too will, always be found.

You and I will rewrite pages of history with our story of lost loves being found against the fervor of passion and the intensity of sound. The meaning here defined that is the forever of my love for you.

In death, as in waking life, we are full circle. You have found me, and once again, I have found you. I see you in the light.

James Pearson

1.24.2023

Interview with Jesus – Part 1

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Hello, Jesus Now, when I thought about doing this interview, my first concern was where on earth would I find you and turns out you found me. I mean, it seems that you are all over the place.

Well, James, I am happy that you sought me out. I tend to be very busy, especially around your Christian Holidays. You have so many of them.

You mean they’re not yours? Christ – Christian. They were respectfully named for you.

James, while I appreciate the sentiment behind the name, I would never have wanted these holidays celebrated in my name. Especially that one you all call Easter. I mean for God’s sake! It’s okay if I say that, right?

Jesus laughs.
Of course, he is your Father, right! If anyone has the right to say it, it should be you. Please go on.

“Well, the Easter holiday you “Christians” celebrate was no celebration for me. I was hung on a cross butchered as it were, and I tell you it is no pleasure having that thrown up in my face all the time. That killed me. Of course, I came back but still that hurt like hell. Something I do not like reliving. So for those of you out there listening, the crosses I see all over the world not fun to see. Reminders of the horrible pain and suffering I had to go through.”

So this displeases you?

Yes, Let’s say that I’ve moved on from that, closure is what you all call it.

Well, Jesus, can you tell me and our listening audience what you have been up to since, well since you departed the earth. I mean, you haven’t been physically seen since well in hundreds of thousands of years.

OMG – Jesus smiles – “didn’t know that I was familiar with your – Net-centric abbreviation for the popular exclamation “Oh my God!” I think it’s essential to keep up. So you might say that’s what I have been doing all this time. Keeping up with the world just fighting the good fight as it were.

Jesus, that’s a bit vague; can you be a little more forthcoming, please?

James, I feel like if I say too much, I will have all these expectations put on me, and while I do have power over the earth land and sea as it were by telling you I kind of show my hand and I like to surprise.

(Jesus laughs)

Why are you laughing?

Well, I find it funny that you humans enjoy a pleasant surprise at least that’s what I hear and see, of course, but you can’t seem to wait for things when you pray. You have no idea how many requests I get in a second, and it’s usually the same people asking for the same things over and over again. It’s a wonder I’m not schizophrenic.

Okay, then moving on, I am going to ask you a series of questions about what’s going on, and I expect you to be brutally honest as possible.

Of course, I only know how to speak the truth; after all, I am the arbiter of truth, love, and honesty, so please go right ahead.

What do you have to say about the current White House situation?

That has nothing to do with me. My Father and I tend to stay out of your politics. Let me say this though in all your Presidential elections since 1778, have there been so many prayer requests.

Were they for or against him?

Him?

Well, you know Trump.

I don’t wish to choose sides, but just let me say that you all should have known better.

Jesus, what do you mean?

James comes on the man tweets for goodness sake; he’s a well-known megalomaniac.

So you don’t care for him either?

Well, I am Jesus, so I forgive and am understanding, but I have to take one of your human adages: If you don’t have anything good to say about someone, don’t say anything at all!

Well, Jesus, what can we do to make things better in the White House under this current regime? I mean, can you at least tell us what direction we need to go into does praying help?

Prayer is always good. We are still listening, but it’s you who must do. You have stopped Doing. You have become a nation of talkers, pundits, influencers, and such. Take a page from your 1960’s history. That was a good time for you, humans. You had sit-ins, revolts, You not only talked but you acted and changed happened. I enjoyed watching human growth during that period.

You liked that, did you?

Absolutely you broke down barriers; you used the strength that Father gave you to move mountains. You like that. Thought that I would take you back to the days of old. Those were some excellent times in human history too. You have come along way, but in this century, you remain to stagnate STOP talking and DO people.

Wow, advise from Jesus.

“Jesus nods, and smile’s almost chuckling.”

Ask me anything I’m pretty much an open book.
Speaking of books. Let’s talk about the Bible.

“Jesus stood up!”

Dear God! I’m going to need a short break before we get into that.

Okay – whatever you say!

Pauses tape

To be continued

 

James Pearson

I am LGBTQ

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I will always be a whisper in the wind
A passing shadow
A time that you will never forget
Space between two walls
A memory that you will never chase but will follow you
until the end of time

I am like a light that seeps through the floors and cracks the wood to be seen
I am a yet a whisper of a loud voice
The echoes that you remember that will seek you out

I am exposed and imposed

I am savagely picked apart through time

I sleep with your brothers your sister’s your wives your husbands
kept in secret for fear to be revealed

I am ostracized criticized an abomination
A fag, queer, sissy, lesbian, gay, transgender, bisexual
poof, poofter, drag queen – I am out of breath

I am meant to understand your way, your meanings your religion
yet
I am not your You

I shine
I am strength reclaimed and unclaimed by disease
I am kept alive, and death returns my favor to be remembered by peers

I am the struggle

I am measured as a hero

I fly below ground, but above ground, I have risen

I will STAY

I am the colors of the rainbow weathered by every storm
I return born of who I am
I can be nothing less than you may wish

I am married, divorced, separated, single.

I cross lines for I cannot be established as sectional
I am solitaire and camp

I am numbers growing, continuing to spread
count on me to be unstoppable in your
present past and future

I am Fifty and Beyond, Surpassed and off into the Distance

I am LGBTQ
And I AM

James Pearson 6.19.19

348 West 49th Street – Chapter 12

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Tommy is with his sponsor. They have just left an A.A. meeting and his sponsor David  is walking to the train. Tommy walks with him so that he can get in some sponsor – sponsee time. “So what should I do?” Tommy asks him

“I suggest that you should stay out of the chat rooms for a while.” David says to him with regards to him telling him about Ramon and the other guys he’s come in contact with in his search for love or whatever else he’s looking for.

“Well how else am I supposed to meet men?” Tommy ask him.

David stops walking for a minute, looks at him and say’s.  “Tommy you want to meet quality men right?”

Tommy stops walking too. He hesitates before he answers. ” Well yeah but.”

“But what?”

” I don’t know!” Tommy slowly starts to shut down on this topic. His sponsor picks up on it

“See now there you go. We try to touch on what you really want and need from a man and you start to shut down on me.”

Tommy sounding defensive. “I do not!”

David laughed and shook  his head.  “Yes Tommy you do.”

Tommy now sounding both defensive and annoyed. ” I said I do not and stop laughing at me!”

David  starts walking again and Tommy  continues on in step with him. He is still feeling agitated  but says nothing. “How long have I been your sponsor Tommy?”

Tommy does not answer him.

“And  I never laugh at you. I want you to understand something though. When you talk to me I listen. When you ask me a question, I am only giving you suggestions. What you decide to do afterwards that is between you and your higher power.”

Tommy  being Tommy starts  acting embarrassed. “I know. What ever. Let’s keep walking.”

David shook his head at him again, smiled, stops walking for a second and say’s. “Tommy you know what I want you to do for your-self?”

“What?” Tommy said honestly sounding interested.

“I want you to sit down and make a list of ten things/qualities that you want in a man. When you are done, you and I will sit down and talk about it. Can you do that?”

Tommy lets out a very loud sigh. “Yes! Okay I will.”

“What’s the matter?” David ask him.

Tommy smiled. “I hate home-work.”

“Don’t think of it as home-work. Think of it as nourishment for your soul.”

“Who are you Oprah now!”

David puts on a big ole smile.  “I’ll take that as a compliment. I don’t even think that Oprah could sponsor you. You’re a hand-full and a half but I love you.”

“What are you trying to say?  That I am a hopeless case?”

David shoots him  Tommy a look that Tommy is all too familiar with and they both laugh.

“Tommy you know that I love you more than I love my shoes.”

Tommy looks down at the shoes that David is wearing and responds with playful attitude. “I hope that you are not talking about the ones that you are wearing now. Those are just not working child.”

“You are such a “Diesel queen.” Leave my shoes alone.”

“What ever!” Tommy says with a smile. Enjoying their exchange of attitude.

“So you are going to do the list right? Trust me I did and I would never suggest it if I had not done it my-self. It worked for me. I have been with the same partner for 8 yrears now because of that list.”

Tommy  Mockingly says. “Yeah, yeah I know and “he’s everything that you could ever want in a guy.” I have heard it before. But here’s the “hit” where did you find him?”

” God sent him to me.”

Tommy with even more mockingly and sarcasm says.  “From where? Did he just drop him from the sky? Because I tell you what, with my busy schedule  God knows that I can’t meet a descent man in a club. All they really want to do is hook-up and while I am not against hooking up, I want to meet someone to actually date.”

“Thus the list Tommy. And I say that God sent him to me because after I made the list I stopped needing. I knew what I wanted and it didn’t become a priority and then one day – sitting having lunch by myself, minding my own business and there he was. He walked right up to me. A gift from God. I’m just saying.”

Tommy  still with the mocking. “I know and the rest is history! I’ll do the list okay. Meanwhile what I do about Ramon?”

“That situation seems to be taking care of it-self from what you have told me. Perhaps you should let it be. Let your higher power continue to take care of it for you. Can you do that?”

Sounding doubtful. – “I guess. I don’t know.”

The two of them arrived at the train station. David gives Tommy a hug and a kiss on the cheek.  ” Well that’s honest. What ever you decide to do you know that you can always talk to me about it.”

David slowly walks down the stairs to the train and say’s – “Do the List!”

Tommy playfully yells back – I will!! Damn work my nerves”

Tommy leaves the train station stop and starts to walk up 7th   avenue from Christopher Street. He walks in and out of a few clothing boutique’s. After trying on several hats he finally decides to buy one. He walks out of the store and then he stops into a fast food restaurant to pick up something for dinner. He decides to go to  the park off 14th street and 8th ave. to sit down to eat. He looks up after taking a bite from his salad and a man is standing right in front of him. It was Ramon.

“You come here often Tommy?”