I am LGBTQ

I will always be a whisper in the wind
A passing shadow
A time that you will never forget
Space between two walls
A memory that you will never chase but will follow you
until the end of time

I am like a light that seeps through the floors and cracks the wood to be seen
I am a yet a whisper of a loud voice
The echoes that you remember that will seek you out

I am exposed and imposed

I am savagely picked apart through time

I sleep with your brothers your sister’s your wives your husbands
kept in secret for fear to be revealed

I am ostracized criticized an abomination
A fag, queer, sissy, lesbian, gay, transgender, bisexual
poof, poofter, drag queen – I am out of breath

I am meant to understand your way, your meanings your religion
yet
I am not your You

I shine
I am strength reclaimed and unclaimed by disease
I am kept alive, and death returns my favor to be remembered by peers

I am the struggle

I am measured as a hero

I fly below ground, but above ground, I have risen

I will STAY

I am the colors of the rainbow weathered by every storm
I return born of who I am
I can be nothing less than you may wish

I am married, divorced, separated, single.

I cross lines for I cannot be established as sectional
I am solitaire and camp

I am numbers growing, continuing to spread
count on me to be unstoppable in your
present past and future

I am Fifty and Beyond, Surpassed and off into the Distance

I am LGBTQ
And I AM

James Pearson 6.19.19

The Perfect Imperfection of God

The longer I live on planet earth I wonder why we as a human race continue to exist? Life being so precious as we like to say, and yet we as humans take a life every second every minute of every day. Why the creator has not completely wiped us off the face of the earth, I’ll never know.

According to the Bible, God has tried it a few times but not completely and maybe that’s the problem. God even in his infinite wisdom by saving a few humans who appeared or who God considered upright and just, still gave birth to humans who still came out able to hurt and kill without even a thought of how killing another human is vile, repulsive, inconceivable, unconscionable and just wrong. Why would a human kill another human? How does the idea enter into the brain just as easy as it is to breathe?

Has God has left us? I ask this because I ask it. How else can we explain our existence other than to say that maybe God has left us to exist on our own? It’s not a question of God caring. I wonder God just decided “my mistake, I’ll let it be.” Has God moved forward, beyond what we can know or imagine, to create again?

The Creator moved on to improve on his creation, to make another image? It’s worth the ponderance. I do know this; we are a sad race of humans. Always afraid, fearful, not accepting, suspicious, judgemental, at first before we let our guard down. It takes centuries before we can look at another human and speak simple fundamental truths; two legs, two arms, two eyes, a nose, mouth, fingers, toes say you are a human just like me. The color of skin and hair may be different, the sexual organs may be different, but all these make us all basic human. The only thing that makes us different is our individual thought, to think, to reason but in that thought there must be basic and simple reasoning understanding. The understanding that no matter the thought, this is another human, notice I didn’t use the word the same.

We are not the same because if we were the same, oh my what a boring world it would be. My wish is that humans would stop being afraid all the time. We are not born afraid we are taught to be scared. Animals are born with instinctual qualities one might say abilities. They have these abilities because they are born in the wild, they need them to survive. We humans are not born in the wild nor are we raised in the wild. How very sad for us to continue to live this way since breath was given to us.
I’m not saying we are to be perfect, far from it but if we could just see another human as just that. Maybe a view of perfection would create a new and better world to live in and oh what a day, what a world that would be. Hello human, Hi human, welcome human, just human.

James Pearson